just thoughts

as i sit here in my dorm, staring blankly into my laptop's screen, i have thoughts about life
much of it is whether or not there is a god
sometimes its just about what am i doing with my life
a lot of my thoughts ponder on the very existence of the human soul
nowadays i think of what its like if i were a guy
then all these thoughts of college come in
will i fail my classes?
will i find that passion?
what will i major?
as these thoughts descend into a further state of mind
i think to myself
humans are the most complex species in the world
we have these thoughts of color
these thoughts of feelings
dreams and memories
it's just one of those days where you wish you could know
everything in the world
what is life to you?

a gift from god

Today, I broke down in class while I was presenting my paintings. Seeing me cry, my teacher gave me some time to recuperate and as I was calming myself down, my Professor came and hugged me. Ever since my freshman year, my Professor has been there for me- comforting me and encouraging me to be who I want to be in life. Much of the reasons why I'm still holding strong is because of the kind and loving support my Professor gave me and I believe God gave me her to help guide me along this tough path in college. After class ended, a lot of students gave me encouraging words and this one individual named Gabby, introduced me to a whole new world where we could be inspired and express ourselves. Honestly, she showed me "Challenge Day", and well... :) encouraged me to go. I broke down in a crowd of older people, older students, and showed my vulnerability. It was a raw experience.. Having Gabby give me hugs and a little calming talk gave me all the inspiration in the world that we can change people's lives.
I think God is giving me a message..

"We are all one people if united, we can be love and peace".

i learned a valuable lesson in friendship, gained a new friend, and experienced a whole new vision.

I dont know what the purpose of this message is..

but there's always caring people out there..you just gotta open your eyes.

they just might be your guardian angels.